 A lot of thought has gone in to building my website and its look, the name, including the logo above. I'm also an artist and I especially work with clay to make sculptures, I also restore antique taxidermy. I sculpted the vertebrae for the mink skull to pose as a stand for its open mouth. It almost looks like attacking snake when it's hanged on my wall from its frame. In the logo it looks like it's coming back to life, gone past the ending and starting a new cycle. Resembling the Death card, which has always brought me comfort more than anything else.  The Death card also inspired the colours, black and white, which I also associate with beginning and ending, yin and yang, darkness and light. I've always found comfort in the darkness (partly because my very sensitive eyes), spending a lot of time in the vast dark forests in Finland, I never felt fear. The idea of death has never frightened me either. My family has followed the old Finnish/Saami belief system for generations, we believe in reincarnation, new life blossoming from the one that's ended. I wanted to incorporate this philosophy in my "brand look" and in the images I use. Ihana is my favourite Finnish word. It means "wonderful", "lovely", "marvellous", "glorious", "delightful", "adorable", "dreamy", "beautiful" and "fantastic". All that in one sweet word. That's what my journey with Tarot has been like over all, ihana. Don't get me wrong, it hasn't been easy at all, and I've often been called out for my own bull shit, which I have later much appreciated. Learning tarot has given me so much hope and sparked my passion and inspiration in so many ways. This is also the reason why I now want to start taking my learning more seriously and share my knowledge, as that often is the easiest way to learn more about a subject. In Inari Saami language my name, Enni, means "mother". For a long time in my youth, I did not like my name, as to me it sounded old-fashioned and dated, and instead used all sorts of nicknames to introduce myself with. I almost made the choice to use my nickname, Endi, when I started offering tarot readings online, as that's how many English speaking folk interpret my name as. Then I read the Archetypal Tarot by Mary K Greer, and discovered my birth card to be The Empress, the mother in the tarot deck. This card has always stood out to me and now especially it resonated with my belief about myself, as someone who is and always has been very creative, always birthing something new. So, I decided to respect my elder's choice of that name, Enni, and introduce myself as I am, a creative, empathetic, intuitive, sensual and nurturing. In the Finnish folklore, women are the gateway to death, as they can bring life from death (the underworld, Tuonela) by giving birth. They also bleed for days every month without even slowing down. Hence why Finnish women have always been respected and bearing a high status in the Finnish society, often been titled as healers, shamans and seers. Those women have been the mothers of death, and I can only wish to be one of them someday. (I have another blog post in mind where I will elaborate more about the Finnish culture and history of women in the old society!).  The mother of Lemminkäinen by the river of Tuonela;
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